My head needed to wear new shoes

I recently torked my back somehow and I’ve been really struggling with it. It’s so hard for me to be in pain. I power walk the dog and walk lots during the day and this has really slowed me down. 

It has also depressed me. I’m not managing my thoughts around it very well and find myself worrying about this not being temporary and getting older and not being able to be so active. I have good doctors and a great chiropractor and we are working through it but it’s dragging me down. 

I felt a little better over the weekend and decided to see a show my friend had invited me to (the Texas Tenors!) and without a thought changed into more dressier shoes than my sneakers. I had a great time. 

A bad decision or a good choice?

I woke up stiffer the next day and now again have pain when I walk. What an idiot! Why did I switch shoes when I was starting to heal? Of course, I started beating myself up. 

Suddenly a thought crossed my mind. My head needed to wear new shoes. Forget my back. My head needed relief! I needed to feel young and active and healthy in my head, regardless of the reality of the situation. It wasn’t the best choice but I didn’t intentionally wear shoes that would worsen the pain in my back. I just didn’t even consider it being a problem. I wanted to look dressed up. I wanted to enjoy going out and having fun. 

Break the rules occasionally!

Sometimes we just need to do something silly or fun or different. Because our heads need it. I would never recommend doing something harmful but sometimes we need to do stuff that just feels good. We all know I should have thought about my back but I was feeling better and my state of mind quite honesty needed more remedy then my back did at the moment. 

I think this applies to those we care for, too. Again, I would never recommend doing something harmful but I think there are occasions when we can let up a little, go with the flow and let their heads have fun. Maybe something good for the mind, soul, and heart could prevail over rules regulations and instructions. 

My Mom loved cookies and diet Pepsi.

Letting my Mom eat cookies, ice cream and baloney with Diet Pepsi is just an example of how I looked the other way on many an occasion because I thought her head needed it. It gave her such joy. It was at the end of her life for Pete’s sake and with dementia, I was lucky she ate at all. To this day, I don’t feel guilty about letting her have her way. There are times when we need to bend the rules and most importantly not regret it or beat ourselves up for it.

 My head loved the new shoes.

So I’m on the way to the chiropractor now and I’m sure he’ll help me get back on track. I probably won’t tell him about the shoes. After all, it’s over and done with and I’m glad my mind got to wear them. In the long run, my head is so much happier which helps my back and everything else!